ode to work

Well we all have to work i guess right? Its what i do when im not writing. This time its onions. Stinky but its money. Garanteed i wont be there forever!

argh!

There's nothing worse than writer's block. Its driving me crazy. Its a great story but im stuck.

I never mentioned that I wrote a book. Silly me. It's about a teen age girl caught in a pure mess of drugs, alcohol, and a dysfunctional home. She is face with some very bad happenings and takes the law into her own hands. If you like that sort of thing along with a little bloody murder, pick it up and give it a read! It's  called "And say it was all in vain."

I hope everyone had a merry christmas! Its been a busy year huh! Still marketing my book "And it was all in vain" so we will see how that goes!

Well hell!! It's been a long time since I have had any interest on getting on here that's for sure. I have had waaaay too much going on to take any time at all-and I miss just jotting down a few things, it's healthy I think.
I am one of the chosen ones for having an "imbalance"-or whatever you call it. It makes me very exhausted all the time, and just getting out of bed is a damned chore from hell  and so is everything else. No matter how much I slept, it was never enough.Then there was the emotional shit. Good god. I'd just be sitting there, and get all emotional and upset for nothing.Anxiety. What a tasty treat to have...NOT. Get so worked up you actually get sick to your stomach and literally want to die. For people that say it's all choice to be that way, they can shove it right UP THEIR ASSES. This shit is real, and it's really really shitty.
I feel much better now....hehehehe. Thank God for my Dr.
On the lighter side, I feel like reading again. I enjoy reading, especially scary and horror stories, and true ones as well. I got a collection of stories on my kindle-was pretty excited just to feel like reading.One was actually about killer plastic sacks....really? WTF? Who writes about killer plastic sacks? Not trying to act like my shit don't stink, but it was indeed silly. Needless to say, it didn't scare me to grabe a plastic sack out of the cupboard, or even a ziploc baggie. Silly gooses. Read a good zombie one though, I love zombie shit.
I haven't finished a story I started writing some months ago, and feel guilty but I will get it done one of these days. Shit, I haven't typed in so long-feels weird!
I miss my friend. I miss her sense of humor and her intellectual stimulation that I always get from her. She is my hero.Literally. She would say pffffft to that , but she knows she's the shit.
Well, I have more chinese food to shove in my face, it's nice to like food again.
Stay optomistic I say, you never know if a cat will shit on your lawn. HEHEHEHEHE!!!

thoughts of a rambling mind

I have to say that I have not been the happiest person lately, working around a bunch of bitchy old lazy women can do that to a person I suppose but it's not a good feeling. I am here to tell the planet there is no way in blue hell I am going to be at this damn job for thirty years.....nooooooo.....
I think I will call the mob and ask them if they have any jobs available.Seriously.At least you can meet an untimely death with them and not rot where you don't want to be.
The good side of it is my kids are doing good, which is my main concern on the planet.If they are happy and have what they need then I will do whatever it takes to give it to  them.
I also feel like shaving my damn head, that's what I get for messing with natural curly hair. Dummy me. It's three different colors and it's not behaving at all. My fault.
This is random as hell-but that's how my brain is working right now.
Spring needs to get here before I go "Shining" on people.Not in my house of course, but I do have a list of worthless assholes..just saying.
I wish I could find my words again, I started writing another story and know partly of where it's going, but my words are failing me.I have to idea what happened but I'm a bit sick over it.
I think it's time to go back to  the drawing board for my mind again. The blue prints have once again gotten lost in the dust and dirt, hopefully I can retrieve them.
I have to also say this. Don't settle for what you have if you know you have a talent that you would be successful with. Life is tooooo short my friend. I've seen little here's and there's of the world and let me tell you, it's a far cry from this place.Do it to it and get the hell out of this town. I wish I would have. It's like The Bridges of Madison County. The bitch should have just gotten out of the truck.

A great day

Well, Christmas was smooth and happy.I took over Christmas dinner and it went very well I think.A little crowded, but that was okay.Everyone  got plenty to eat and had a good time.My mother felt a little lost not having to help do anything, but I think she appreciated not having to worry about making yet another dinner.She's only been doing it for fifty plus years!
The kids were very happy with their gifts, and thankfully I have a thrifty husband who saw to it that they all had  good gifts that they are now enjoying.He never wants anything for himself,the only thing he ever wants is for his family to be happy.I could not ask for a better spouse indeed. He was a gracious host, showing people out to the rec room and keeping a fire going for them to enjoy.
I ate way too much, but what the hell.Tis the season to be fat and merry I say.
I think about families who didn't have a Christmas this year and it just breaks my heart.I want to be filthy rich for a few reasons, but one of the main ones is to help those who are trying their asses off and need a little help.You can't take money with you, so I say spend it on those who need it probly more than you. Perhaps one day this will be a reality.
My biggest Christmas wish of all? That all the bullshit on this planet just stops. That would be nice. Merry Christmas all, and God Bless you. I'm getting bugged by a five year old haha, I will be back soon!